I knew you

On a handful of occasions throughout his short life, Lucas has talked to me about the time before he was born. Just the other night when I was putting him to bed, he told me that he was searching and searching for his mama and dada before he got into in my belly. Other times, he's told me that he was with Jesus until he found me.

There's an oft-quoted bible verse from the Book Jeremiah chapter 1, verse 5, "Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you."

Those conversations with Lucas have always been brief but they are very meaningful to me. Although I don't talk about it much, I do have a strong belief in God and do believe strongly in heaven.

Yet, I feel pretty sure that I've never "planted" those specific thoughts in Lucas's head. Perhaps someone else has; I haven't asked Abel about it. Both our mothers are very religious and his daycare provider was as well. Maybe one of them said something to him once about being with Jesus before he was born and it really stuck with him. Maybe.

Or, maybe this is one of those examples of brilliant truths coming from the mouths of babes. Maybe there is just a teeny, tiny piece of him that does remember his soul searching for his parents. That does know that his soul was with Jesus before his earthly life began. Perhaps this is just a vague memory that gets smaller and more distant with each passing year, until one day, as adults, we can hardly fathom that truth. Perhaps.

It is both comforting and awe-inspiring to think that, of all the millions of egg and sperm and combinations, God did know Lucas and his baby brother before they were formed in my womb. That Abel and I were formed to be their parents. That even though there are times we, as adults, feel so distant from God and from heaven, that the smallest babies know and remember.


Original post by Smiling Mama. Thanks for reading!